If I Could Wake You

When rooms are filled with silence deep
I walk the halls, you're in my dreams
If I could reach through time and space
I'd give the world to see your face
The pain's a tide, it swells, it heaves
If I could wake you from eternal sleep

Can't stop the tears running down my face
No way to understand unexplainable things
One night he calls and I don't pick up
The next day I learn I'd heard his last rings

If I could wake him from eternal sleep
I'd say I love you, please don't leave
If I somehow begged for a new diagnosis
I would have saved myself from a life of grief

Why didn't I open my eyes and see
The awesome depth of the soul of this guy
His spirit survives in stacks of lyrics
So beautifully expressed they'd make you cry

Composed when he stood so strong and vital
Unable to find the peace that he sought
Bored and tired, feeling so down
Busy fighting each creeping negative thought

If I could wake you from eternal sleep
I'd say 'I love you, please don't leave'
If I could change that final diagnosis
Would I then save us from this deep grief?

He wrote "I'm just a spoiled midsuburban kid
With no real reason to live
The kind you hear about that died
With just one difference - I'm alive"

My brother didn't really want to go
Just mental games mapped out in font
When doctors couldn't fix his ails
He wrote "Life is all I really want"

If I could wake you from your silent sleep
I'd whisper "I love you, please don't depart"
If I could rewrite that final diagnosis
Would I then mend the break in our hearts?

I say goodbye, my true soul match
Why'd you waste your days in sorrow?
You could have had all your dreams might conjure
But could never seem to face tomorrow