Breakup Songs

I wish I could forgive you
Better yet that I didn't need to
Don't you wanna try?

I think about the first time
If I could do it all over I would
Have stayed in that night

I should call and ask you whether
We could write breakup songs together
To help me see

The trajectory of my recovery
I'm either stuck at rock bottom or underneath

I wish I could forgive myself
Or better yet that my mental health would
Even put up a fight

I think about the next time
I'm getting worried I
Can't get it right

Ever since we've been apart
Getting out of bed is getting harder
And I can't see

The trajectory of my recovery
I'm either stuck at rock bottom or underneath
I can't control the way I heal feel or bleed
Cause healing isn't the lips it's the teeth

As much as I wish you could
Take it from me even if you would
That isn't how this goes

I gotta get on down that road
And do it on my own
I may not know where it leads but eventually

The trajectory of my recovery
Will either stick at rock bottom or underneath
I should go but I don't wanna leave

The trajectory of my recovery
I'm either stuck at rock bottom or underneath
I can't control the way I heal feel or bleed
Cause healing isn't train tracks it's a trapeze