i think I was Delusional,

I think I was delusional again
I thought that you were more than just a friend
Tell me
How many times will I make this mistake
I keep giving away all my love goes to waste
As I drive down this highway, wish that I had molly
So I could forget your face
And how it made me feel

I think I was assuming things again
That now it'd be different from back then

Tell me
How many times will I make this mistake
I keep giving away all my trust that you're breaking
I go on my phone and my heart starts the shaking
Yet still it's okay don't mind how long it's taking
Cause maybe one day you'll coming running to me
And you'll finally see what your words mean to me
And you'll finally feel what we always conceal
And it's finally real, I can finally heal
Through how you make me feel

Yeah yeah, there is something there
Maybe I can write about it more later
But it's like what is it about my gut and my head
That tells me I need to do impulsive things
Because they feel right to me
And how do I tell people
That it's not courage that drives me
But this constant desire to like, feel something
To feel like I'm doing something amazing
Or to do something that feels right with me
Like I cannot settle, I can't
It's like Sharpay