Love and A' Payroll

When you weren't there, my soul wasn't there, wanted to know
KP The Gr8 boy, you know how we coming
My tears hit the floor
Stand on the edge of the border between everything

Cause I stay indecisive, no order
I hated myself for a moment, I hated myself cause I was out of pocket
But storming, was lying to myself but its dormant
I pray to God for better days and I know he'll bring forth it

He stripped me an emotional portion, he took away sum
So I could see sum important,
So now what I do I end up getting bored, I remember them times it was
Night on the porch, was alright, I felt like I could fly, I could soar

I'ma see to the end, but the end at the door
I ain't sad, but I wish I was glad a lil' more, it's go time
Yeah I'm hurt, but it's 2024, don't mention no names
But the pain is the most, I gotta see through it, it's we that he chose

I do it for you, for the fam and the bros
Wherever I end up, ten toes
Whenever it's my time, wont fold
KP The Gr8, you already know, gotta stop trippin

I'm made of gold, I'm never gon' play with a pole
I hope for the streets to be cold
I gotta go hard for the bros
Was ungrateful, very impatient, all kind of thoughts

Running through me turned dangerous, stayed to myself and I finally
Faced it, had to get off of my back and made changes
Too many feelings from too many angles
I only wanted love and a' payroll, life don't be fair

It's like fighting an angel, can be gracious
Yet be so grave though, I can complain but also can be thankful
Was a lukewarm Christian, I'm paid tho'
Manifestation for me is like waking up

Get out of bed and just take off, comparison
Killed me but I am the gr8est, to money I won't be a slave
And everyone around me they have faith
Ain't see it at my young age

You keep that and then the top you take
Bout sixteen and riding my wave, not interested
So don't check out my page, you see a youngboy be paid
Best get to stepping, I don't follow that train

Priorities is set and arranged
Priorities is set and arranged
That come real easy
For my youth I exchanged

And I took on a mindset of an adult man
One that went through some pain, used to live like a sinner
Brand new beginner, wrongs be red like a stain
God put him on a path and told him to act

He figured out the rest of the way
God stopped me in my tracks and showed me an image
It was me without riches, it was me being poor
It was me unenlisted, locked from the heaven of difference

I could never be afraid of failure, but failure's a fear
If it is what I'm living
I could never be afraid of sharks, but sharks is a fear
If they there when I'm swimming

I could never be afraid of opinions, but opinions a fear
If the lyrics ain't hitting, there's a piece of yourself that you give up
Whenever it is you decide to be different
The people they want a new image, someone who can keep it consistent

Think I fit in the spot, I can't focus in school
Cause I'm still tryna see what I'm missing
Need to go to God on how I'm living
Want a shawty, but shawty ain't different

I'm a answer to prayers, a witness
You could even be one if you listen
I took pain to the face, still grinning
I be wishing the kid was still spitting

He saw nothing, but knew all the business
Sometimes I stand on the edge of the border
Between everything, cause I stay indecisive, no order
I hated myself for a moment, I hated myself cause I was out of pocket

But storming, was lying to myself, but it's dormant
I pray to God for better days and I know he'll bring forth it
He stripped me an emotional portion, he took away sum
So I can see sum important

Wherever I end up, ten toes
Whenever it's my time, wont fold
KP the Gr8, you already know
Gotta stop tripping, I'm made of gold

I'm never gon' play with a pole
I hope for the streets to be cold
I gotta go hard for the bros