For You

For so long
I've been giving myself a hard time
And I've been
Neglecting
Every thing in my life
Cause I'm too proud
(Man, it makes me sick)
(Man? it makes me)
I wanna be
Able to talk about
What's going on
When my head is in the dirt
Instead I just
Smile and say I'm fine
To all the people that
Give me their time
I'm getting overwhelmed
With this shit
Oh man
It's fucking tough
(Yeah)
For me to speak about
You've done enough
For me so far
Just leave me alone
Can't you see what it's doing to me?
I'm getting choked up
So take note
I got it locked away
In here
I told you man I'm doing just fine on my own
So step back
For so long
I've been giving myself a hard time
And I've been
Neglecting
Every thing in my life
Cause I'm too proud
Of myself
To speak up
When I'm suffering
Man it makes me sick
Look at you
Man it makes me sick
To my guts
Look what it's done to me
I'm breaking down cause I need
Someone to listen to me
Fuck you
You're what I wanna be
I'm seeing people that are so much stronger than me
How do you do it?
Enjoying everything?
It took a lot for me to leave the fucking house again
So what I'm saying is
I'm fucking struggling
I just
Need
I just need
I need help to get back the pieces I lost along the way
I just need someone to tell me it's okay
I'm still the same person
I'm still the same person
I just need to find him again
I've started to break free, I've started to end
My self suffocation is my only friend
The path that I walked on
Is showered in hope
Cause I've carried this weight on my shoulders for so long
And It's beginning to drag me down
I let one bad day in my life
Define who I am
For a whole year
I'd become what I'm not
Cause I'm not what I think
I've pushed you away
But it's not my fault
It's taken me too long to figure it out
Cause I'm starting to find my way
Out of the darkness
Cast on me
I told myself
I just need to make it
Through "One More Day"