Umbrella

Yeah, even though I try to crack a smile, shit never gets better
Left a lot of demons behind, but they still won't let up
Yeah, I can feel a storm on the rise, I don't worry about the weather
Cause even when it rains, I don't hide, I just get an umbrella

They used to always make me out to be the problem
That's how you turn a young boy into a monster
Like how you got a daddy looking for a father
Running hella wild through the avenue of Conklin
That's in Jersey, don't get it confused
We had to move, I ain't really have an option
I couldn't stomach the news, that's when I realized
When you are a child, you are basically a hostage
Shout out to my mama,
Tryna save us from the wolves and piranhas
But anywhere you go, it's gonna be drama
You can end up dead or in prison, gotta talk to your honor
They say every year of life is a blessing
Then why everyday I'm dealing with stresses
Like how my only eight with depression, imitated happiness,
I ain't really good with impressions
Where do I start, I got into art
Cause you ain't gotta be yourself if you play a part
But when the script get ripped up
You can't remember lines and your lines get mixed up
You join the military then your bags get picked up
Yo ass get shipped up and life get flipped up
Side down, had you sign a contract so you tied down
If somebody that you care about dies now
They will keep you on deployment like you mine now
They won't let you fly down

Yeah, even though I try to crack a smile
Shit never gets better
Left a lot of demons behind but they still won't let up
Yeah, I can feel a storm on the rise
I don't worry about the weather
Cause even when it rains I don't hide, I just get an umbrella

Back then I didn't care what I jeopardized
Every choice that I made got weaponized
Down to deal with the shame long as I catch a vibe
Looked in the mirror and saw someone I ain't recognize
Like who that, couldn't predict the forecast
Discharged but still living on warpath
No commitments or promises, I get bored fast
Yeah, a hard head make a sore ass
Staring at the ceiling, where you at God
Feeling like my prayers on backlog
Soon as he hear my voice mail, I'll be back dog
Devil caught me slipping, gotta get these damn traps off
And everybody so damn selfish, if they had the chance
They probably wouldn't help they self get better
The temptation of women, power and dividends
Giving in, it's a crazy world that we living in
She want me but my ego way too big to fit it in
Gotta eat your wheaties and take all your vitamins
I'm a lot to deal with, I stepped in
With a lot of luggage, you ready to pay for check in
Yeah, cause it always cost you
If they still be running the streets, they gone cross you
Bet you when they bringing the heat, you get caught too
Friendly fire on, it's the closest that'll off you
Play with fire and the shit might scorch you
My brain speaking like remember what I taught you
Give applause to all the people trying to support you
If it don't mean nothing to you, I think it ought to
Cause everything got a silver lining
Sometimes you gotta search to find it
Focus on the words, I ain't gotta be the first to chime in
Execute it with the perfect timing
It's a storm coming

Even though I try to crack a smile, shit never gets better
Left a lot of demons behind but they still won't let up
I can feel a storm on the rise, I don't worry about the weather
Cause even when it rains, I don't hide, I just get an umbrella

Even though I try to crack a smile, shit never gets better
Left a lot of demons behind but they still won't let up
I can feel a storm on the rise, I don't worry about the weather
Cause even when it rains, I don't hide, I just get an umbrella