Not A?

Am I the one that's the problem?
Do people like me for being myself?
If you think I need to change, I'll happily take your advice
Be honest with me, is it true that I'm the problem in people's eyes?
Primarily, I'm the one who is getting talked down
What if the tables turn for one day?
Do you think you'd like it?
I surely do hope so
Finally, you're the one who's not getting invited
I feel finally like I belong in this world
I'm just a boy trying to survive, survive
Criticism is nothing, everywhere I go I get criticised
My self-awareness is gone, I don't know where it went
Is the outside not a lonely place?
I doubt you will give me a fair chance
Fighting my inner demons, while you just live your peaceful life
Under the pressures of the world
I'll be fighting the weather of the storm
Does it all change when I'm in between the demons?
People bring my self-inner strength down with the words they say
Did I deserve it all?
Holding on to the things I love, like this!
Since you did such a thing to me, I need to put on my brave face
Is it fear that I live on the outside of all the fun things?
One day you will understand what this all feels like
You'll be sorry for what you did, if not, just wait
I feel finally like I belong in this world
I'm just a boy trying to survive, survive
Criticism is nothing, everywhere I go I get criticised
My self-awareness is gone, I don't know where it went
Is the outside not a lonely place?
Now the mirror feels like a nightmare
Seeing my own face makes me violent
I hope you reached your goal, I really hope you did reach them
Do you think you'd be liking it?
I'm just a boy trying to survive, to survive
If you think I need to change, I'll take your advice
Is the outside not a lonely place?
Not a lonely place