mourn you

I tell you i love you.
and you say you never felt more alone.

Thought if i wrote to you.
you'd realize what you'd done

And you'd come back better.

I have to mourn you.
let you go.

Bury you sweetly with flowers
you bought me before

I'll stand outside in the pouring rain
without covering cause suffering

Makes me feel sane

You tell me you love me.
then leave me all alone.

Is that comforting?
or freeing?
trying to save me from what you don't know.

You're miserable.

I have to mourn you.
let you go.

You're not the person
i once loved before.

Sometimes i miss you
and i wish i didn't
feel that way.

Sometimes i need you
and i know that
you wouldn't stay.

This loneliness i sit with
like a black hole of resentment

Wishing you'd just come
back home to me.

That door was wide open
are you still wishing and hoping

That you would have a place to sleep?

I hate you

You hate me for healing.

For having courage that you never had.

I'm sorry for screaming.

Just wish we didn't end it off this bad.

Don't wanna have to mourn you.

Don't wanna have to let you go.