You knew me better

I freaked out and I lost myself
In the heat of the summer shuffle
You know me well and I couldn't tell a soul
And I thought I hated July
But this December is worse than I thought
And I'd been barely scraping by
I think that we both knew we were a matter of time

I barely feel the cold when it's all around
I guess that sums up my life pretty well
I see the snow and i want to go far away
So you can't see me
Glide under blue skies
But the skies here don't shine on me no more
So I'll fly into the night
It's been night here since I first arrived

And you, knew me better too
I'm the only one who couldn't read my mind
It's true, I couldn't follow through
I hope my burning bridges don't mind

I'm alone and I should know
This is exactly what we wanted
I write my songs and you sing along
From the grave that you dug yourself
At night, away from the sight
Of our parents sleeping sound in their bed
Oh god, save her from facades
That I whispered right before I wound up dead
I fight, but never wind up right
She'll follow me until she winds up here
A fraud, I'm nothing if not flawed
It'll be too late until it's crystal clear