Therapy Session

Gotta recognize my self worth
Pain
Yeah I did self hurt
Nothing physical
Still not minimal
I just never put myself first
Why? I don't know
Deep rooted
Like canal, tears flow
Sea through it
Red Sea, heart tears
Bleed through it
No band aids
I just need music
Beat therapeutic
Been around people who been abusive
Just acting foolish
I'm fired up from the gaslighting
Don't act clueless
When you know you fueled it
Drove me right to the edge
With the left on reads
Acting like you didn't do it
They say it's all in my head
When I feel the dread
Plot got a twist to it
And I felt stupid
Felt dumb
Felt empty
And felt numb
And I felt guilty
Cuz I wore a smile
On the outside
That said welcome
On the inside
Thoughts racing
So I'm turning pages
Where I get my help from
On the outside
Sitting waiting
I just made a payment
And I hope the help comes

Talking it out

Recognizing that I'm dealing with trauma
I'm healing from trauma
I need a tattoo with a period and comma
I'm wishing my grannies were here with my mama
I'm looking for guidance
I'm going through problems
I lower my eyelids
And still see a monster
Anxiety got it
I went to the doctor
She questioning me
Now I feel like imposter
Stressing to me
Gotta feel out my options
Depression you see
Got a pill, do I pop it?
Found me a doctor
Who saw me as honest
Instead of some blocker
Who hated my progress
I'm loving myself
And I stick to that promise
The man in the mirror
Had told me I got it
I gotta stay solid
I'm feeling accomplished
And rocking and lighting
The world like a comet

(Very good)
Hmm
(Is there anything else before we end today's session?)
Umm... yeah, I actually have a lot more to say
(Well you have my undivided attention)
Bet

Light up the world
When the comet is hitting
I'm saving my world
When I'm burning some bridges
Cuz I'm on a mission
I'm critically thinking
My session is over
My journey not finished
I'm just getting started
This is the beginning
Got something to say
But don't know who will listen
They getting dismissive
My thinking is different
We live in an age
Where the thinking is missing
We live in an age
Where to think is forbidden
Proceeded to think
Wasn't given permission
I'll still take a minute
And sit on decisions
While under my terms
Overcoming conditions
From my understanding
It's my definition
Rewriting my chapter
No character limits
The vibe of a hero or villain
My spirit
Depends on the day
And the proper prescription

Got my prescription
I was burned too many times before
Now I got that fire
So they know imma spit it
Speaking on things
That some people can't handle
They tell me to cancel
The bird imma flip it
Flipping the script
And the narrative
Loving my character
And I'm just hoping they get it
Had a good therapeutic session
Learning lesson
Now I got a follow up visit

Until next time
If nothing else
Please
Take care