Forcing a Smile (in an IHOP)

You won't change me
You won't break me
You keep choking
Till my eyes bleed
Call the doctors
I'm the martyr
Force a smile
Fluid in my lungs

This won't last
These dreams I have made
Kill the past
If just for today
Still I'm searching
Till I fall back down

To suffocate
Me again
Just so I breathe you in
And when I die
You're to blame
Let me down
Bring me back to you again
I won't drown
To suffocate
Me again
And bring me
Back to reality

I'll keep searching
Head's a prison
Cut my heart strings
Scar the weakness
Tell my father
Tell my mother
This ain't winning
This is losing, son

Write this down
For all that it's worth
Push me out
Again and again
Gave you all my heart can give
Still your stealing more

To suffocate
Me again
Just so I breathe you in
And when I die
You're to blame
Taking this back right now
Bring me back to you again
I'm falling, down
To suffocate
Me again
And bring me
back to reality

Won't take
Anymore
It's more than I want to
Won't fake
Anymore
You're more than I wanted
Won't take
Anymore
It's more than I want to
Won't fake
Anymore
You're more fake than I wanted

This is war
Again and again
One by one
And day after day

To suffocate
Me again
Just so I breathe you in
And when I die
You're to blame
You're more than I wanted
Bring me back
(Won't take)
To you again
(Anymore.)
(It's more than I want to)
To suffocate
(Won't fake)
Me again
(Anymore)
And bring me back to reality
(You're more fake than I wanted)

I'm still searching
Burn the bridges
Choke on ashes
For the answers
Call my mother
Call my father
Force the smile
Knives all in my back

Won't take
Anymore
It's more than I want to

Won't fake
Anymore
You're more than I wanted