The Ending

Wouldn't kiss me in front of friends
In that concrete office building you lived in
Did your love run cold cause it was no longer fun?
Cause it wasn't forbidden?
Signals and code words were the language we spoke
I went for your hand as you went for my throat
In the car
In the bed
In the messages I wrote

I watch our memories from my window
As our silhouettes danced in street light shadows
Or when were singing in a car getting lost on the freeway
Or when I said "you made me better" and you wouldn't believe me
And cooking dinner for two but always thinking about three
Staying out till the morning so we'd never be seen
Conversations of black tie weddings
Do you understand me now when I say
This can't be the ending

Public appearances were hard
As I felt like I was pulling you through the dark
As I took control of the operation
You followed suit and pledged my nation
You couldn't tell any of your friends
As I knew that it was something I could never defend
And they would fill your head with indecision venom
A snake bit I knew I could never get rid of
Dinners with your sister who I love so dearly
Or holiday events you would come to yearly
Only made me realize the luck we had
And if I lost me with you I'd never get her back

Oh
Oh

I watch our memories from my window
As our silhouettes danced in street light shadows
Or when were singing in a car getting lost on the freeway
Or when I said "you made me better" and you wouldn't believe me
And cooking dinner for two but always thinking about three
Staying out till the morning so we'd never be seen
Conversations of black tie weddings
Do you understand me now when I say
This can't be the ending

I'm sorry I had to tell them this way
You know I couldn't face the chaos
You couldn't watch the slip away
And now I'm jumping down the barrel of the choices that I made
I'm finally pulling the trigger
Hoping the bullet will only graze
And if it kills me slowly at least it's cause of you
I know our flame hasn't died
I know it's only turning blue
And no amount of hidden evidence can't make it what it seems
Cause truth be told I loved you so
AND I KNOW THAT YOU LOVED ME

What felt like peace suddenly turned to war
With my cousin who you love beating on your door
Using liquor and late nights to fill the wound
Doing anything to end up in your room
Calling me Taylor Swift laying in my bed
Rambling about all the success I led
With the letters and the cards that we both left
You don't compare to any fame that I don't have yet

I watch our memories from my window
As our silhouettes danced in street light shadows
Or when were singing in a car getting lost on the freeway
Or when I said "you made me better" and you wouldn't believe me
And cooking dinner for two but always thinking about three
Staying out till the morning so we'd never be seen
And even though we're lost I feel like we're winning
Because the end, is only the beginning