Drown (#metoo)

I tried to wash off your kisses
I tried to drown out your voice
Tried not to relive the memory
Seems like I don't have a choice

I tried erasing your fingers
I tried to smoke out your scent
'Cause I don't want to remember
You made sure I couldn't forget

I tried to wash off your kisses
I scrubbed my neck til' it bled
I've got invisible bruises
That I still feel in my head

I tried erasing your touches
Clean out the inside of me
But I can still find your fingerprints
On every freckle they weren't supposed to see

And I'm drowning in a river of you
Suck me back into the tide
There's nothing I can do
And I can't breathe
But I can break through

The surface nowhere to be found
I can't determine up or down
No one nearby to hear a sound
Of where you left me to drown

Ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

I tried to wash off your kisses
By letting him kiss me too
Thought I could repaint the memory
Cover the remnants of you

I tried erasing your fingers
I cried while he held me down
And while alarm bells rang in my head
I'm growing more and more numb to the sound

While I'm gasping in a river of you
Scarcely beating past the rocks
I'm bruising myself too
And I can't breathe
But I can break through

The surface nowhere to be found
I can't determine up or down
No one nearby to hear a sound
So I guess I'll just drown

I dream of breaking your face in
Imagine bashing your brain
Won't be found guilty of murder
Just redistributing pain

I'll scream the darkest of anger
The way I couldn't scream then
I'll take back all of my power
Then I'll replay it again and again (then I'll replay it again and again)

And I'll strike back 'gainst the tide of you
Swimming blindly towards a light
There's nothing else to do
And I can't breathe
But I will break through

I won't give up on being found
The scarring only slowed me down
And the world will listen to the sound
Of where you left me to drown