Time Again

Whoever said it was easy was lying
I can't even manage a simple goodbye
Without choking on the syllables and making stupid jokes
Trying to be a singer just to see if you'd come to my show

I bleached my hair just to see if you'd notice
Found something we have in common, went and made a playlist
Add another song for every part of you I like
Try to keep my cool and keep my name inside your mind

So I'll act all nice, and then I'll run my mouth
And then I'll meet your eyes, and look at the ground
And I'll toe the line, and I'll play the field
And then I'll dream of you, and I'll wish it was real

If you had asked by now, I'd be yours
And we'd be in love by now, or at least I would
Oh I can't help myself, it's a curse
How I let myself fall face first time and time again

Whoever said "be yourself" hasn't met me
Tired of pretending being twenty is easy
'Cause we're like in love and it's like the movies said
Then I open up my eyes and realize I'm still in my bed

If I had the capability, I'd turn everything off
Save myself a little dignity, stop waiting for a shot
So I'll act all nice, and then I'll run my mouth
And then act like I hate you, then wish you're around
And I'll drag your name, and then I'll start to blush
And then I'll write you letters and rip them up

If you had asked by now, I'd be yours
And we'd be in love by now, or at least I would
Oh I can't help myself, it's a curse
How I let myself fall face first time and time again

If I had the energy, I would stay away
Sober up my thoughts of you, avoid another break
Block your number just so I can't make a mistake
Throw my phone across the room, I love you, I'm insane

If you had asked by now, I'd be yours
And we'd be in love, I know I would
Oh I can't help myself, it's a curse
How I let myself fall face first time and time again

Oh
I love you, I'm insane