Since I Was Young

I was talking to bro, I told bro I said
I'ma always be me (big girl, stop playing)
You gotta hear me out for real
Aye Swerve wop

I still remember them nights I was down on my last (down on my last)
Was skipping them classes ain't ask for a pass
To be honest, I don't even think 'bout the past (think 'bout the past)
Was tryna be grown, I was moving too fast
When I think about how we was living
I think about lighting up candles to see in the kitchen
I think about Pops and I feel like
He could've fought harder, but I guess he made his decision

They asking me why I done switched up my flow
It's a story behind it, I want you to know
Need to be sure when it's my time to go
How did Swerve find Jesus? I want 'em to know
My bro died back in December 2021
No natural causes, he died by a gun
I went through that pain, couldn't have me no fun
No stranger to pain ever since I was young

But I can't even lie, always knew I'm the one
I'ma tell him 'bout Jesus when I have a son
It's one false move and you done
He gon' teach you to walk, then He'll teach you the way you should run
My God is the truth, gotta give Him my life
But I can't even fake like I ain't think twice
You gon' end up with pain, fall in love with this life
Went straight to my heart when He showed me His light

As a child, I was pushing a bike
I'd ride to the store for a drink and some Mike's
I remember when money was tight
And I looked at my mother and said, "I'ma change your whole life
I'ma make up for all that we been through"
Ain't get to tell brodie all that I meant to
Down on my last, it be God that I vent to
And changing your life, it ain't simple

(Nah) struggle with things I don't really be speaking on
Jesus hoodie with a Bible, I keep it on me
And no, I ain't perfect, but I got people that's looking up to me, I gotta be me
Way too much sitting all on my mental
Who gon' be there? Who the one I can vent to?
Changing my speech, know I gotta be gentle
I'm teaching my youngins the faith I got into

Rock off the beat, I ain't talking 'bout killing (okay)
Ain't talking 'bout sex, I ain't talking 'bout drugs
Lot of people confused think they found 'em the one
But they with 'em for lust, they ain't with 'em for love
Got a Spanish baby and she pretty
She tell me, "Abrazo" before she come give me a hug
And I can't do no cap in my music
I keep it a hundred, I say exactly what it was

Told 'em I'm doing good, I wasn't even right
Take off like a rocket then fly with the kites
They react on the internet, call 'em flight
I take all my thoughts, put 'em right on the mic
Had to wipe off my feet, I was stuck in the mud
And I hop on my feet when I think 'bout lil' cuz
I ain't thinking 'bout me when I'm chasing this buzz
When I look at my life, it just ain't what it was

I still remember them nights I was down on my last
Was skipping them classes, ain't ask for a pass
To be honest, I don't even think 'bout the past
Was tryna be grown, I was moving too fast (I was moving too fast)
When I think about how we was living
And I think about lighting up candles to see in the kitchen
I think about Pops and I feel like he could've fought harder
But I guess he made his decision

They asking me why I done switched up my flow
It's a story behind it, I want you to know
You need to be sure when it's my time to go
How did Swerve find Jesus? I want 'em to know
My bro died back in December 2021
No natural causes, he died by a gun
I went through that pain, couldn't have me no fun
No stranger to pain ever since I was young