Ghost Ethos

I finally broke
I have no feelings to emote
Somewhere between a rock and a hard place
I awoke
To become remote
Pushing everyone away
Because I felt that tension around my throat
Dragging me under
With the weight of expectations
I became a Ghost
Just a distant memory
Wasted space
A broken vessel of energy
I hope you don't remember me
Because the person you knew was empty
They won't come back
All that's left are words
Words reborn with new faces
Left to my own devices
I devised my own Ethos
Content to foster my own mythos
Living only on the hope of a new Eos
One where I don't hate all of you
For the pain others have put me through
For now I'm content
Just being another blur as you scroll through

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm petty
But I'm feeling like any minute
I might throw up mom's spaghetti
Because I lost myself
In the hate, heartbreak, and volatility
Now you think you know me
Bitch you lost all ability
You're not in my vicinity

Are you happy with what you see?
Feeling uncomfortable in the warmer degree
Because you're cold hearted
At least that's what you tell yourself
Expecting nothing, when so many have departed
Anxiety on the rise, declining health
Maybe you should retire before even starting
With a mind so riddled with doubt
You chase material things and clout
An insurance policy to fall back on
But isn't worth shit when the love is gone
Which is all you really crave isn't it?
Yet your desire has left you jaded
So convinced by a self image you created
One you so desperately want faded...
Only to be left with loneliness
The cruel mistress
While she whispers sweet nothings in your ear
You desperately try not to hear her
So this is where we find ourselves
Having this conversation with myself in the mirror
All that love i have to give, left in the lost and found
And this poetry shit will never leave the ground
I fucking hate you
No one gives a shit what you're going through
You'll never be enough no matter what you do
Hit me so I can feel something
But all that remains is a broken mirror and bloody knuckles
Numb, feeling nothing

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm petty
But I'm feeling like any minute
I might throw up mom's spaghetti
Because I lost myself
In the hate, heartbreak, and volatility
Now you think you know me
Bitch you lost all ability
You're not in my vicinity



Credits
Writer(s): Ethan Phillips
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