That Boy Was Never Gonna Change

Bad bets, regrets
The evidence outweighed the defense
Even then, I kept all your secrets
Every time you crossed the line
And it makes no sense
I'm on trial, if the crime is yours, then
Why am I the one paying for it
When I've already done my time?

But now I got that hindsight (hindsight)
Bird's-eye view from so high (so high)
Up in the sky, I'd go back in time, I'd
Tell myself every time that he said he'd tried
He lied

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never
No, that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waiting the rest of your life
That boy was never
No, that boy was never gonna change

All my grieving
Done on display, while they watched, critiquing
Buried my heart while it was still beating
As vultures circled in the sky
Whispered treasons
It's like I'm awake at my wake, I'm screaming
Why are they acting like I can't hear them?
"How could she not have seen the signs?"

But now I got that hindsight (hindsight)
Bird's-eye view from so high (so high)
Up in the sky, I'd go back in time, I'd
Tell myself, "When you felt something wasn't right
You're right"

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never
No, that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waiting the rest of your life
That boy was never
No, that boy was never gonna change

But if I had a penny for every lie, every tear that I've cried
For a stupid boy, I would die the wealthiest woman alive
And just to spite you, I might, with every song that I write
Diamonds every time someone streams this line
We might be splitting our things in half, but you're getting more than that
My youth, my trust, my body, all the things that I can't get back

And no, whoa
Can you give me that back? You can't give me that back
The damage is done, the coast is sunk
The war is over, but nobody won
I'm empty-handed while you're holding the gun
If you want my two cents, just run

Save your pennies and your nickels and your dimes
You'll be waiting here a very long time
That boy was never
No, that boy was never
You could spend your twenties wishing that he might
But you might be waitin' the rest of your life
That boy was never
No, that boy was never gonna change