Wasting Away (Demo)

Yeah
It's been a while
New Mixtape, Still working on songs, new days
No idea what's happening next but I'm just living
Oh yeah, here's a message from 17-year-old me to 18
Just do it

Yeah
Life's a mystery, no one really knows
The destination is only important when you know where to go
No idea what I'm doing but I'm still taking it slow
Paddling my lonely boat, trying to stay up afloat
The world is evil I know, so just keep going
There will be waves but I promise it ain't worth slowing
The only difference between you and me is that
Men... I just keep going

So first, Imma put this hate in my pad
Last resort, the only choice I ever had
Maybe if I used the aggression, and fake being mad
I might just write a song that you might actually like
Now I've been hung on by a thread
Still hanging on by the throat
Placed in aim
I'm pretty sure that's a sniper scope
For every single line, in which I ever wrote
Not knowing that this is the only way I cope
So maybe, stop telling me that I might never blow
I've been doing this, since I was 14 years old
But I know that nothing's been changing
Ever since the Covid 19 situation
But I just kept going
Writing my songs, just kept growing
But I don't know anymore
I can't explain it
This is, new, I can't stand strong
'Cause I'm wasting away as I'm writing this song (so I'm)

I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Feels like my mind's been locked in a cage (anyone there)
I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Why do I feel like nothing is the same (Hello)
I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Feels like my mind's been locked in a cage (anyone there)
I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Why do I feel like nothing is the same ('cause I've been)

Perfecting every skill (skill)
Been doing every work (work)
Following the drills
For a dream that I might someday fulfill (Damn)
Even though, I might never even make a mill (not really)
But I've been moving to chill
My flow so icy it might, just make you ill
That you might need to pop a pill
But it will be me still moving with my pop appeal
Still trying to appeal to the audience
I've been looking for so many reasons
My numbers been fading
But I just can't believe it
I've been trying to see the reasons
But I think it just me dancing with these demons
They been creeping I might need a preacher to preach the sermons
I'm not trying to summon, The devil
But I know he's been lurking
Things change when you just away wasting
But I've come a long way from freestyling on stages
To singing my own songs to get people to raise their hands up in the club
But I don't understand this anymore ('cause I've been)

I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Feels like my mind's been locked in a cage (anyone there)
I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Why do I feel like nothing is the same (hello)
I'm wasting away, I just can't explain (I can't)
Feels like my mind's been locked in a cage (anyone there)
I'm wasting away I just can't explain (I can't)
Why do I feel like nothing is the same (but I've been)

I've been talking about my feelings, the mixtape
Which you called a missed take
Oh, men that's a big mistake
I've been talking about my feelings but it ain't working
Maybe I'd try something new
Like guns, violence and bitches
Or maybe heartbreak anyways
Oh men, that will be a rainy day
But this is the plan
I am RM
Finding out who I am
But I've been moving too fast on this beat
Like I'm a Tesla Machine
But I'm not Elon Musk
I'm just trying to find my own buzz (just find it)
But I'm gonna make it
Men, that's a must
But this isn't gonna change who I am
'Cause it's only God that I trust (Dear God)
So I'mma end this song by saying Amen (Amen)
And peace unto you Salam (Salam)