Boogerwall

I let my trust issues eat me alive sometimes
Swallow me whole with scenarios that I visualize
They'll probably never actualize hopefully
If you say you got love for me
Would you hold me and grow for me
When I'm low on my dopamine?
Serotonin been low for weeks, months, years
Been depressed since I was eight
Tears streaming down my face, racing each other to my chin
When I was six, standing in the yard, blanky in my hand
Watching other kids play, too much going on in my head
I could still hear the sounds of them screaming
Too young to be battling demons
But nonetheless I was battling demons, keep it real
Guess I'm just another product of a broken home
Wiping boogers on my wall, too scared to go and blow my nose
Cause in the hall, Daddy had his hands around my Momma's throat
For fucking on the neighbor
Tryna escape this boat, it was sinking
Not like the duckies in my tub when I was tryna cope
Lather up and wash away the pain with the soap, I was feeling dirty
Cause just a year ago I was molested by someone
I thought was my big brother
Felt neglected and did the same to my cousin
I'mma probably go to hell for it
But I was only five, too young to know bout right and wrong
I just knew what I was shown, that's why I had to right this song
I'm tryna be transparent so I could heal
Forgive myself and everybody else for how they made me feel
I'm no better
I'm just tryna grow, no pressure
When I was an adolescent
14 with a Smith N Wesson to my brain, or to whoever
Doing drugs, numbing my cleverness
I aint wanna think bout shit
Was feeling jealous when I seen people live effortless
With happiness so evident
Meanwhile I'm just a resident of hell
Still feeling Heaven sent in the sense of a fallen angel
Why my brain so fucking foggy?
Probably the trauma, Father I'm calling on you cause I re-
I remember wiping boogers on my wall
Too scared to go and blow my nose
Cause in the hall, Daddy had his hands around my Momma's throat
For fucking on the neighbor
Tryna escape this boat, it was sinking
Not like the duckies in my tub when I was tryna cope
Lather up and wash away the pain with the soap, I was feeling dirty
Member wiping boogers on my wall
Too scared to go and blow my nose cause it was demons in the hall
Yeah



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Writer(s): Damien Savoy
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