Antagonist

Even today, bruh when you were like
"I'm gonna fuckin' kill myself"
Here's the thing, I understand where you's coming from
But at the same time
Imagine the pain that I'm going through, it's like

Planting every single mines 'round my fucking field
Planning every ambush on my best friends
Just in case they're gangin up to kill my ass
You can never tell, you can never tell
Family's out to get the best I'll ever have
Every aspects, every sides
If you're not my father, mother, favorite cousins
You ain't nothing but a fucking leech

24 hours no sleep, no rest man
Fuck a call, I don't need help
Fuck your company, I don't need friends
I don't need your validations
I don't need you telling me I got depression
I don't need you criticizing all my motherfucking actions
Y'all ain't never lost a brother
If I die then that's the first you'll suffer
Am I punching on myself or everybody else?
Am I on my own, do I got not nobody else?
I can never lose control, I can't lose control
I can never lose control, I can't lose control

Peeking through the window grab the cutter by the shelf
Mouthing words of affirmation, need to calm myself
Why'd y'all tell me "take these fucking sadness by yourself"?
Now y'all fucking preaching bullshit, tell me "love yourself"

Peeking through the window grab the cutter by the shelf
Mouthing words of affirmation, need to calm myself
Why'd y'all tell me "take these fucking sadness by yourself"?
Now y'all fucking preaching bullshit, tell me "love yourself"

I hope you'd come into my dreams, bruh
I hope you end up where it's high never where's it's low
They'll forgive your soul
Every single sins that we done committed
I know you always meant well
I hope they question you enough to get that
Every single actions were accumulation
Of the things they gave us in this world

Rebuke all your sins
I swear they gon' get it the time you explain on yourself
We got a lot of people roaming 'round this fucking city
Selling bodies, you remember that shit?
They got these women and make 'em their money-makers
Then they leave 'em like nothing, for real
And you were the person to think that it's gonna be fixable
Long as we're hopeful 'bout this

I ain't forget that they underpay teachers
Preventing people to be leaders
I ain't forget that these children are taught to be beggars
My God, they're all praying in vain
Are we all victims of rulers with power to conquer the people?
But speaking of victims
I love this nation where SA cases are still open
But people just blame on the victim

Nowadays I've been walking like you
Nowadays I've been talking like you
Nowadays I'm tryna care for my people
Like you did to yours in the trenches of Central
But you're deep inside of a grave
I don't even know where it's at to this day
I ain't no savior like you
I'll get it together myself

We can have 8 billion people in this planet
But whoever we see in the mirror
Is still our common enemy

I don't know why
Come to my life, oh
Many will reside
Come to my life
Many, many wonders come true