The Pain

I didn't know what I was giving up til I took it back
Emotions and perspectives getting spit like they a fact
I thought I lost myself but I've been staying right on track
But to be honest it don't always feel like that

So I'm smoking on the dro, yeah I'm getting smacked
Whipping the Kia like I whip a murked out 'Lac
I'm eating good food like I can't get fat
Missing moments, making moments, life with no Kodak

I'm just your stuntman, you only want me when it's time to take a risk
Body on the line, bend my knee, break a wrist
Doesn't matter the cost if it buys your bliss
All it bought you was a mask of happiness

Always mentioned what's left to gain, never what we had attained
Got a message in my brain, you gotta choose a different lane
Continue to pursue, or peace, both come with pain
No Drake, but ever since then nothing was the same

I could've been better too, I should've been better
It was hard to do when you move like you got a vendetta

When was the last time that you kissed me, held me, hugged me, fucked me
Made me feel like I'm worth something
Lately feel like less than nothing
Effects of emotional dumping

It always comes down to perception your past is yours and I'm no repetition
When I make an impression, it's gonna be of my own volition
Militias marching in the marsh when we both in the kitchen
Struggle to work past the difference, till one of us winning
But it don't feel like we winning

Nah

We just beat the other person
That ain't really winning
That's just dominating
Get our egos inflated
Leaving scars where we lay them
Argue all the times that we used to start playing
It's amazing
But in all the wrong ways
Like a long maze started fun but now we've gone all the wrong ways
Still can't find the right way
Start panicking
Heavy breathing, feeling dizzy
Sun beating on my brow
Sweat dripping to the ground
I can't feel my chest
I think this is my death
Til God looked me in the eyes and told me take a deep breath

The voice soothed me, something moved me, I'm getting my senses back
Support and caring words, putting strength into my back
I thought I lost myself, but Yah helped me back on track
And to be honest, I hope it always be like that

Always mentioned what's left to gain, never what we had attained
Got a message in my brain, you gotta choose a different lane
Continue to pursue or peace, both come with pain
No Drake, but ever since then, nothing was the same