Soul's At War

I betcha nobody is taking me serious
White boy from berta, just another number like serial
But Im catching some bodies on bodies
Killin beats so delirious
But let me tell a lil something about my struggle
Tried to carry all my baggage but I fell and I fumbled
I broke and buckled by weight of the burden
Of the choice to remain all covered
Exposing my true self, that's true wealth
Gotta choose to believe that He wants my guilt
Trading death for life of the living one
Even though I've been bad with the hand that I've been dealt
I can see now, I can hear now
Shame is gone, grace arrived and I'm free now
Told Jesus take the wheel, more power than a V12
My testimony here ya
I've crashed whips and I've blown zips
And I've crushed pills, Ive been born sick
Psychedelics I've chose trips
Even my close friends I've made those slip
I even dodged a case when my eyes were glazed
And all hope was gone with the cameras on
Cuffs tight, cop truck, charges laid
Dang, future felt like it was confiscated
Had a full clip drawn on me, don't twitch
Slammed on the back of a Crown Vic
High as E.T. but I couldn't phone home
Felt alone, fear and pride held such a close grip
I'm so sick and tired of being so sick and tired
Why do I gotta feel like I gotta be in other states of mind
Just to feel more alive, my souls at war
Jesus come and make your home inside
I aint no Crip cuz I'm sealed with the Blood of the Son
Of the lamb who's a man but a God and a friend
And the champ of the grave and he rose
Made a way for the lost, took my place, paid the cost
Rest In Peace be to Juice and to Mac and to Peep and to Screw
And to anyone else that got taken way too soon
From substance abuse, but if you hearing this
It's never too late for you, so I
Put the drugs down, picking up the sword now
Put life together with the Lord now
Spirit lighter than a feather metaphors now
He paid the price that I could never afford, WOW
So go ahead, go off God, won't you take a bow
All this restoration got me thinking about
How you've always been there even in my doubt
And all them times that I felt like I was down and out
I can not stress it enough so I'll say it again
Suppressing our fears and our sins and our hurts
And our thoughts is just wearing us thin
There is a God who cares, just take it from me
So why don't we let him remove the impurities
He'll do it just like some surgery
And no matter the weather
He's leaving you better than ever
Exchanging our brokenness, pain and our suffering
For all of His eternal treasures
Peace, patience, power, love and kindness
Sight for our blindness, forgiveness and freedom
And comfort and hope and deep sense of joy
In Him you'll find it, so go take it