A Beautiful Death

It's all in my head
I am far beyond peace far beyond death
It's the in between that I dread
How beautiful would that be
To simply die in my dreams
With everything that I need
There's a voice telling me breathe
It ain't time for me to just leave
There's love and hate and there's greed
You decide the one that you feed
I got something left up my sleeve
I had visions than what I'd be
These days much harder to see
Some it's night hard to get sleep
Some part of me that still grieves
I Never gave the attention it needs
There's a thread that I hold on tight to
Break down for real what I might do
Wanna face it down I invite you
I've stared in face of your kind
So many times
Pretend like it's love
Act like it fine
Trust me your activism ain't mine
Soon as I am active you gonna find
All them fantasies is just fairy tales
They just fallacies in your mind
You gonna have to face the dark on your side
Same way I dun had to face mine
Same way that I had to make time
To sit with feeling that nothings here's fine
That's the price we payed for your crime
Now it's all gonna gonna collapse on your dime
Free from the heretics I found clarity
The totality of one's soul
Cowards scared to die and grow old
Cowards scared to give up control
Cowards cling to power I know
There ain't no honour here
It's just dead stares
With empty words in this dead air
Don't think that I am gonna fight fair
Don't think my paths gonna end there

Night's when I find myself awake
Lost in a dream in the twilight
Wishing your closer to me
Dreaming your here alone with me
Time passes by you stay in my mind
As hard as I try to let you go I know I am doomed

No other one
You are the moon I sun
Two different worlds we from
There's no way we could outrun this
Stay with the drum
Close to the chest and away where you from
I remind you of the way we are one
You remind me of the hate that you've done
Click clack bang went the way of the gun
Couldn't handle the heat so you aim the sun
All that praying didn't save no one
Quiet down now listen when a poet say something
Like how do I become someone you remember
Desire got high in November
Our fire brunt down to the embers
I live in that moment forever



Credits
Writer(s): Nathan John Arges-ujong
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