Healing energy

All this time I ain't know how to feel
Shit get hard when your life getting real
Locked up emotions I needed to heal
Didn't care I just wanted a deal
Like member them nights I was skipping them meals
Put I work I was grinding my skills
Put in work I got rid of them pills
Was up late at night going dumb with the drill

I ain't cold I'm just hurting for real
Give me love said I'm giving out chills
Cop a bag
Finna to run up a mill
Cause mama need help gotta to pay off her bills

If you seen what I seen.
You would know that I'm real you could tell How I feel
But don't think I'm weak
Cause there's pain on my hip, niggas I'm know that I kill
Like
Iatly been feeling secluded
In my thoughts got me thinking I'm useless
check in with self
Cause the clocking my movements
niggas is mad,
I ain't feeding delusions

Gotta rep what I preach
Cause niggas would hate when they see you improving
Fuck that ima just spit like im shooting
See the difference
The way that im moving

Giving love to myself
Fuck the drugs it ain't making me wealth
Pray to the lord cause I know he could help
Psalm's in my head
It's protecting my health
Like
121 it was felt
Protect me from evil
Send demons to hell
Trust in my Bible
It's off the shelf
Showed me a path
Ain't related to cells
Like
It ain't over
Im greatful to god
Cause he made me a soldier
Talk to myself when I need me some closure
Im on this road everyday I get closer

But still look over my shoulder
Remembering the risk and it's making me older

Older in life
I can't live with regret
Took a while had to get out my head
Like keep it a buck
I ain't grow up with funds
I said what i said I ain't grow up with bread
Give me some time
I'll admit
I'm wreck

I was tight till I got me a check
Now in the present im jacking im bless
Cleanse my heart put cross on my chest
Word to the lord said im coming up next
Im greatful to him
Cause he made me this ...