How I Got Here

I get a dead man's letters in the mail every day
But those bills keep piling up there's no one left to pay
And all of that debt passing through my fingers
Is just a reminder that all loss lingers
And I don't know how I got here
Do you?

Well you left me breathless as you pulled off my dress
And if I wasn't so messed up I wouldn't be so easy to impress
But the touch of your skin underneath my fingers
Is just a reminder that all loss lingers
And I don't know how I got here
Do you?

Cause I just woke up babe
I think I've been asleep
I dreamt that my father died
But there's no way he would ever leave me
So what did I miss babe now I'm back in my skin
It feels so strange to breathe after that ocean of grief I was drowning in

And now that I'm awake I see
That you and I we cannot be
And now that I'm awake I see
That specter there she was not me
But just a vessel for the loss
A great man comes at quite a cost
And now that I'm awake I see
I made you a victim of my grief

Cause I just woke up babe
I think I've been asleep
I dreamt that my father died
But now I'm scared that it wasn't a dream
So what did I miss babe and does it show on my skin
That there is no relief from this ocean of grief I am drowning in