Mean Reds

I'm so tired of this cage
That you put me in
But I feel comfortable when I
See the outside behind this bars
And when my ghost awakes my body
I start to overthink
All the things I cannot change
Not enough for anything

God's been writing my story in a language I can't understand
And I'm trying my best to get
The starring role in the narrative of my story
Some may say another day in this life was a gift to me
Little do they know
I beg to God to tell me
When the deadline is

Suddenly you are afraid
And you don't know what you're afraid of
This loving feeling
It's not real
It's not real
Keep telling myself it's not real
The mean reds violent like wildfires cover me in all the ashes

I can't wash my hair today
Cause if I do the weight of pain is less
And when I face it down the road
I won't fix the injury
I have to figure it all out
Autumn winds are changing everything around me
My fate is on the line and only time will tell

Suddenly you are afraid
And you don't know what you're afraid of
This loving feeling
It's not real
It's not real
Keep telling myself it's not real
The mean reds violent like wildfires cover me in all the ashes

This loving feeling
This loving feeling
It's not real
It's not real
Keep telling myself it's not real
The mean reds violent like wildfires cover me in all it's ashes

Take this knife from my side
I will bleed but I'll have no regrets
And if I can't stop the bleeding
I'm living dead
Take this knife from my side
I will bleed but I'll have no complaints
And if I can't stop the bleeding
I'm living dead

Suddenly you are afraid
And you don't know what you're afraid of
This loving feeling

And I feel like I'm in a room full of people
But all of this people watching me
Its just me, and different variants of myself
Starring at me
Running through a labyrinth
How do I get out of here?