Premeditatedly

I wish I could be happy
That I'd get along with my family
I could be myself and not be looked at so strangely
Maybe you should've thought about this premeditatedly

Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Yes, I've been kicked down
Yes, I've been let down
Yes, my words have been twisted around
Yet words are still coming out of my mouth

I can't help it, I'm crippled with anxiety
Meeting every circumstance with difficulty
When things come crashing down to the ground
And your heart counts so loud
It's drowned out by the sound of doubt
Where with every step the floor gives out
Maybe you should've thought about this premeditatedly

Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Yes, I've been kicked down
Yes, I've been let down
Yes, my words have been twisted around
Yet words are still coming out of my mouth

If I could have it my way
I would let go of yesterday
I'd look forward to tomorrow
And overcome all of the sorrow
I'd live out my dreams and give back to the kid
That once sat on a bed too sad to speak
To give some hope to a kid that just wanted to die instead

Maybe you should've thought about this premeditatedly
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Yes, I've been kicked down
Yes, I've been let down
Yes, my words have been twisted around
Yet words are still coming out of my mouth

Gotta get up dusting myself off
Taking every ounce of strength that I am made of
So just give me a minute to breathe
Has it ever occurred to you
That maybe you could just let me be
That maybe, just maybe
I want to find some peace of mind

Maybe you should've thought about this premeditatedly
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Ah-ee-ah-ee-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh