Hold the Applause

I see my day ones by my side
Don't recognize nobody else
Had some time alone with me
Feel like a stranger to myself
What do I want my life to bring to me
Happiness or is it just success
With that question I became obsessed

The thoughts inside my head
Is always ruining the things that come ahead
I'm always playing catch up
So it's hard for me to get ahead
I know my parents say they proud of me
Proud of what's become of me
I don't see what they can see
My doubts always surrounded me

Who's that at the head of the table
That's always eyeing me
Introduced himself to me
Said his name was Sympathy
Get out my proximity
Lock myself inside the Stu'
I'm happy in captivity

I poured my soul upon the mic
The devil orchestrated symphonies
Tail is hitting on the keys
Consume with his harmonies
The only thing that don't change
Is that things always change
How do you expect to see the progress
If you keep it the same
The people around you always telling you
Keep doing your thing
But they just wanna see you stuck
And cut you off at the lane

You can hold on the applause
The curtain hasn't closed for me yet
They watching from a distance
Like they staring at a sunset
All these kids are fucked up
They calling me the substance
Everywhere I walk through
I'm causing a disturbance
This isn't deja vu
It's just a dream that's reoccurring
How many times did she squirt the pussy keep it purring

I told her that she not for me
This time I'm the one who leaves
Trying to find my inner peace
While smoking eucalyptus leaves
Top of the morning is when I start to grieve
For all the rappers left deceased accidentally
Didn't have you in my scope
So why you blaming me
Take offense to me
Seems to me
There's a bigger issue hiding underneath
Getting older now
See the wrinkles dancing on your cheeks
When you speak

Fetty in the substances
My boy he took enough of it
Almost lost his life a couple times
But didn't forfeit it
Say that mind is over matter
But the matter too addictive
Always hanging out with granny
Just for her prescriptions
Swallow all the pills
Then walk away
I see you stumbling
Try to ask you if you need some help
You started mumbling
50-50 chance that shit is pressed
So now you gambling
Lights out
Bring ya back to life
And now he's walking dead

I had to light it up
Smoking while I'm fucking
Had to spice it up
Up inside the car
Without some tints
The view is clear enough
Talking shit
Well let me clear it up
Like it's an enema
Stare inside your soul
I see the snakes around your retinas

There is no team
There is no we
There is just me
There is no us
Used to care about the team
But at this point
I give no fucks
Only hit it once
Carve my name inside her guts
That shit say "Martian Fumes was here"
Read it while she rub her cunt

You'll find me in your mama's tub
Like Ernie with some rubber ducks
Left me squeaky clean
Like a car wash
When I get deluxe