Letter to my X

I know that you might never hear this
And if you do you'll never listen
I wish I could just call ya up
Like I used to, to tell ya what I'm thinkin'
An I ain't really tryna see ya
I ain't tryna get back any feelings
I just wanna share the growth with you
An share life's lessons that time keeps revealing
Every problem I had was mine
But I put it on you
I hate it that I dimmed ya shine
When I didn't want you
I wish I coulda been a man
I wish I woulda told the truth
I wish I had no need to lie
I wish I coulda known you
Would go away an change my heart the way you did
I wish I coulda known
You were a diamond plated gold
I took the piss
I wish I didn't though

This is a letter to my X
If ya hear me
I want you happy nothing less
Hope ya hear me
I wish you all the best
If ya listening, take ya time
You were so good to me
You were too good for me
Letter to my X
If ya hear me
I want you happy nothing less
Hope ya hear me
I wish you all the best
If ya listening, take ya time
You were so good to me
You were too good for me

It's no excuse I wasn't really taught
How to treat a woman
I was told but never really saw
How to treat a woman
Papa was a rollin stone
An Mama couldn't be alone
Made some mistakes but now I really know how

Always known love
An so I've always known
How to love a
I wasn't acting when I really showed
How I loved ya

But I would lie while starin in your soul
Messed up n I turned ya cold
Confess I didn't really know
What I wanted from a woman

I apologise for the tears I made you cry
While learning what I didn't know
They say the biggest changes always come after the hardest times
I hope I helped you grow
Oh I'm so sorry for the tears I made you cry
While I was learning what I didn't know
I was just following my brain
My heart
My mind
I thank you cause you helped me grow
You helped me grow

This is a letter to my X
If ya hear me
I want you happy nothing less
Hope ya hear me
I wish you all the best
If ya listening, take ya time
You were so good to me
You were too good for me
Letter to my X
If ya hear me
I want you happy nothing less
Hope ya hear me
I wish you all the best
If ya listening, take ya time
You were so good to me
You were too good for me

Hello?
Uh, Hello, is anyone there?
Why're you callin if ya not gonna say anything?
Why're you callin if ya not gonna say?!

So many times I called ya phone with no luck
To try explain the past
To try an get you back
Planned what I'd say
If you ever picked up
Could you understand
That I'm a better man
Tried to forget ya
Erased ya from my contacts
That ain't stop me callin
It just had me stallin
Email, snap ya, Facebook and insta
Spoke to ya friends, even called ya sister

I got clean heart
I know you know that
I made some mistakes
But I'd never go back
Grandma used to say if you can't hear, feel
But I never listened, now I can't get you back
You always said I had a way with words
This is more words
Hope ya get the picture
And you ain't gotta say a thing once you've heard
But if you've got no words
Take what you've heard for closure

This is a letter to my X
If you can hear
I want you happy nothing less
I hope you hear me
I wish you all the best
If you can hear
I wish you joy and happiness
A life that is so Blessed
This is a letter to my X
If you can hear
I want you happy nothing less
I hope you hear me
I wish you all the best
If you can hear
I wish you joy and happiness
A life that is so Blessed