Myself

They say sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words were never meant to hurt,
Yet here I stand, bruised by your voice,
Doubting every single word.
So it's hard to know for sure

I do this to myself
I put me through all this hell
I don't know why
This pain is what's keeping me alive

You reload another round
You point, you aim, you tear me down
Or so you try (yes, you try so hard)

But your ammunition doesn't work
The bullets aren't the part that hurts
Not anymore... (they can't hurt me anymore)

You twist the knife, but can't break through,
This fortress high I've built for you.
Though the pain is not there within,
I still feel you under my skin.
It's not the scars that tear me apart,
But the way I held you in my heart.
That's the hardest part

I can't ignore this pain inside
But what's even worse than you holding the match
Is that I'm the one igniting it

Oh I hate myself (myself)
For loving you
Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you
I hate myself
For holding on
When I know it's only hurting me
I wish I could be strong
Oh I
I do
I hate myself

You struck the match, I watched it burn,
But it's the ashes that I yearn.
I gathered them to build anew,
A castle from a love untrue.
But castles fall, and so do we,
Why do I hold on to this misery?

I'd never let anybody talk to me this way
But for some reason when it comes to you
I just stay in place
I fall to my knees
I pray so hard
I need the strength to carry on
And to mend my bleeding heart
I know I can't keep holding on
you're the knife that severs the rope
Just one slip and I'll be gone

Oh I hate myself (myself)
For loving you
Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you
I hate myself
For holding on
To the shattered pieces of a love that's now long gone
I hate myself (myself)
Oh I do
I hate myself

For loving you
Even when you tore me down, I'd pick myself up, and place the crown right back on you
Oh I hate myself