Givin' Up

When I was 15 years old, I lost my mother and my father in the same month
Same month, Bunky 12 brothers and sisters
I was the youngest one, but they were all looking up to me
Now I wasn't ready yet either, but they needed me
Your team needs you tonight

The ones that you love, got to make time to hug The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

The ones that you love, got to make time to hug The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

So many times that I felt down and alone
Dealing with a pain so strong I felt it down
in my bones
Glad I survived, but at the time felt I was dying inside
Looking for ways to cope
I know they say a man shouldn't cry
How can you face the facts or truth when that
shit damage your pride
You see some shit that make you sad, but you still wearing a smile
You trying to heal from all that trauma, know that might take a while
Sorry mama for them days you had to sit through them trials
My intentions was hella good, but I was still kinda wild
I can still remember them times when you knew I was wrong, but still loved me
Big hearts, but we protect them so well
This world is ugly
If you love me, you gotta hug me and never cross me for money
Dissed me cause I was bummy, but now they wishing to touch me
Fam over the rest, I'm praying for God to bless Everybody I love and take away all they stress
Motivation to move forward, the best is coming up next

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

I ain't giving up, I gotta chase this money, gotta son a feed
I ain't gonna react when they start dissing or they mentioning me
I been down for so long, ain't nobody wanna give me shit and I can't switch
I been helping them just like I had it
I been holding all of this weight and I ain't trying to add up all my baggage
Told the homie tomorrow ain't promised, don't let him go catch you lacking
He said he gon' knock me off, I ain't gon' let all that shit happen
Lost my granny ever since you been gone, you know my life been tragic
Been smoking all of this pressure, get in my feelings, I get to rapping
Hopefully, I can show the youth that you can make all this shit happen
Put your mind to it, then do it, gotta make all that shit happen
I miss big bro, he locked up
Better than him being up in a casket
Had to kick down the door, I got tired of knocking and asking
Had to go and take it, I got tired of depending on all that asking
I been having dreams that I'ma make it, gotta go and grab it
Told myself ain't no more lacking, get that bag and you just stack it

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

My exhaust just took another loss
Whoever would've thought suicide was the cause
So tears begin to drop like rain begin to fall
See we been through a lot, even though I never called
I'm sorry about your moms
You know your young brother, yeah he be my dawg
Free Young J behind the wall
Real hard to the struggle, feel nobody love you
Sacrifices made, no one to run to
Cause pain is a virtue, love it'll touch you
Like light from the sun and moon
Mine corrupted closed room, no time to presume
Once you gone, go pause, no resume
No one to run to, baby need some food
Gotta get up, yeah make a couple moves
You ain't living just for you
So stop worrying about how much time you could lose
The new generation, yeah we improved

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up

The ones that you love, gotta make time to hug
The stars high above, you can't really touch
If they ain't showing up, then that ain't really love
Had to get it out the mud, so ain't no way I'm giving up