Here's the First Thing You Should Know

Sleeping in my makeup one more time
Crying, dying, trying to pretend I'm fine, yeah
Reaching for the purpose of this life
I'm just surviving, dying, I don't feel alive
So I

I try to hide who I am
Don't wanna say too much, so I just pretend
But I'm still a mess in the end
You gotta help me to escape from my head

So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me
I almost died at the end of a rope
Second thing you should know 'bout me
I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope
And I can't face my shame
I only find myself to blame
Before you take my hand, you got to know
I'll do my best not to be the same

Life almost ended at fifteen
Felt like I had nothing in front of me
All this time, I don't know how to believe
That I'm worth something at all with all this pain that I bring
'Cause all I ever wanted was to give something back
I'm sick of feeling like I'm just a slave to my past
Tell me right now, would you be okay if I left?
Because sometimes I still feel like I'd be better off dead, oh

I try to hide who I am
Don't wanna say too much, so I just pretend
But I'm still a mess in the end
You gotta help me to escape from my head

So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me
I almost died at the end of a rope
Second thing you should know 'bout me
I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope
And I can't take this pain
The evil voices in my brain
Before you take my hand, you got to know
I'll do my best not to be the same

So here's the first thing you should know 'bout me
I almost died at the end of a rope
Second thing you should know 'bout me
I'm still fighting, trying to find a way to cope
To darkness, I'm a slave
And so I lie, I serenade
Before you take my hand, you got to know
I'll do my best to try to change