Growing Sideways (Live From Fenway Park)

So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
I said, "I'm cured"

And I divvied up my anger into 30 separate parts
Keep the bad shit in my liver and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
But it's a start

But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
(Alright Boston)

So, I forgot my medication, fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu, now I'm (suffering in style)
Why's pain so (damn) impatient
Ain't like it's got a place to be, keeps rushing me

But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive

And if all my time was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb
Than feel, it all

Ooh, if all my time was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb
Than feel, it all

But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day God knows there are worse ways to stay alive

Oh, 'cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive
(Thank you so much)