leave me for dead

You couldn't be bothered till you wanted to get off
Had to posses me or making me feel lost
He grabbed my skin said it was his
Didn't think he'd be a battle I'd win
When I show someone your scars they leave one too
That's the lesson I have learnt from you
Such wasted potential wasn't accidental
You made me feel mental then called it parental
But just cause you're older you could push me over
But wait on my shoulders then act like a soldier
For someone who hated when I talked to men
You made me your real prostitute in your bed
I guess that my payment was being your friend
But getting put first is better than getting head
I wasn't important till you wanted to feel good
Felt things in my soul that you swore I never could
Said I'm immature cause I drunk kiss my friends
But you get in the car with a bottle of
When you start to show concern they push you away
Cause they cant comprehend the same
And me from your mother no I could've loved her
Till she had discovered I put on your covers
As from when you mentioned you got that girl pregnant
And always resented me asking you questions
I'm praying and kneeling staring at the ceiling
Just trying to find meaning in the shit you feed me
Lord doesn't answer He's shaking his head
Saying "I could have told you he'd leave you for dead"
And we never planned this said we'd go to Paris
Till you got embarrassed and I took my chances
You said you were dangerous but I couldn't face it
I treasured your word over their worried faces
Now you're in your jersey, just to make me worry
I've been slowly learning you think that it hurts me
You want me to call you, I know you wont answer
You want me to fall but I'm still fucking standing
Well its only three months but it still felt like love
You'll never say it was, but you know you messed up
Know that I was a lot, but know that I was enough