Fresh New Life

I can't think for myself
When I'm alone
I'll die at
The count of 5

Living from fight to flight
Getting tired of this fresh new life
Today I'm gonna make it
Today it starts
I am the owner of a holy heart
I'm taking it out
I'm making it mine
I'll change chemistry from "afraid" to "doing fine."
From a prisoner in my own house
That tries so extremely hard to get out

When I'm alone I'll die at the count of 5
Your wish is my command
Cause all these thoughts
They must be heaven send
Your wishes are impossible to please
The things you broke impossible to mend and
I'm so done with speaking out tongues
About what is actually going on
When I'm alone
I'll die at the count of 5
Pray for me to stay alive
Cause I'll die at the count of five
Assurance and other lies
Re-open my two new eyes
To possibilities and fright
Fight or flight my way to my
I'll die at the count of 5
I'll die at the count of 5
Pray for me to stay alive
Cause I'll die at the count of 5
Assurance and other lies
Re-open my two new eyes
To possibilities and fright
Fight or flight my way to my

Give me something
Sounds like nothing
Give me something
That isn't so loud

I have finally accepted I might be a schizophrenic
I have finally accepted I might be psychotic
I have finally accepted I might be fast alseep
I have finally accepted I might be in my dreams
I have finally accepted I might be a schizophrenic
I have finally accepted I might be psychotic

So I'll give it
Something that isn't so loud

But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants
Everything slips
Through the little cracks in my mind
All over I try, all over I try
Still everything slips
Through the little cracks in my mind
All over I try, I try to find
To find a fresh new life

But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants
But that is not
What it wants