Ode To My Mother

I pretended I was strong, like I didn't care
Brave like a soldier, tough as a bear
I comforted the others with a smile on my face
Walking around, pretending I had grace
But deep inside, it was all just a game
Hiding the truth, hiding my pain

I'm glad that it rained on the day my mother died
So no one could see the tears I tried to hide
They thought I was tough, believed I was strong
But inside I was breaking, had it all wrong
And now they would know, now they would see
Just how much she meant to me

I promised myself I wouldn't cry
Prepared for the moment, the final goodbye
I built up a wall, tried to shut you out
But now that you're gone, I'm filled with doubt
The tears I suppressed are pouring like rain
I can't hold them back, can't hide the pain

I'm glad that it rained on the day my mother died
So no one could see the tears I tried to hide
They thought I was tough, believed I was strong
But inside I was breaking, had it all wrong
And now they would know, now they would see
Just how much she meant to me

We were soulmates once, you and I
But as time went on, we let it slide
I made you hate me, pushed you away
'Cause deep down I knew this would be the day
Now that it's here, I can't describe
The heartache I feel, the tears I've cried

I'm glad that it rained on the day my mother died
So no one could see the tears I tried to hide
They thought I was tough, believed I was strong
But inside I was breaking, had it all wrong
And now they would know, now they would see
Just how much she meant to me

Now that you're gone, I'm left with this pain
But I'll hold onto you, through every tear, every rain
And I am missing you everyday
Over and over again