Notice

Sometimes I wonder
Where did I go

You looked right through me
Four years in a row

But you didn't notice
I cried
Hanging out with our friends
Has never felt so wrong

All the times
I was left in the dark
All alone in my car
Couldn't let myself out

You didn't know this
But I had to hide myself
And make you smile through it all

Then time would remind us
When distance between each other
Never felt too small

That night that you called me
Came by surprise

A glimpse of connection
Danced in my eyes

Skating on ice in December
Remember how warm it felt
To fall in your arms

Now these walls
Have no room to escape
Dreaming up your embrace
Will you ever see how

But you didn't notice
That I had to hide myself
And make you smile through it all

Maybe someday we'll go back
To living like kids for once
And skate away again

Thinking of all the faces
Left behind
Changing all for you
Beautiful stoic
Never felt at peace

Looking into all the eyes
I once knew
They don't look the same
Strangers surrounding me
Am I dreaming you

But I never noticed the smiles
Every once in a while
You gave
When I didn't know

To often I said I'm ok
When you asked
Maybe I just learned to
Push you away

For a moment babe
I just wanted to be apart of
What we used to have

Cause I'm getting sick
And tired of this shit
Just wanted you to know
The other half of it

This lie's been hell for me
Sometimes it feels like
I shout out loud and
No one else can hear

This year I can't contain it
I get so aggravated
When no one cares enough
To try and see my side of it

Just get me out of here
Tell me that I can see this out
And skate away again