Julia, East Coast

So I've hung up the dreams of you callin my name
I refuse to show weakness, let you in on the pain
Of how your shining absence cut holes in my chest
I've grown good at deceiving, said my mother knows best

Somebody told you I needed your help
But you left me like dust on the books on your shelf
Don't you think I was too young
To understand how a man could look in the mirror
Knowing all he threw out

Julia, East Coast, you missed it all
Flying high off the swing sets and catching my fall
Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull
Nearly 30 years now I still wait for your call
Still wait for your call

My last night in Virginia, they told me why
We were cut from the same cloth but not the same side
I felt mad at your blindness and your lack of shame
I felt anger at the thought of your blood in my veins

Somebody told you I needed your help
But you left me like dust on the books on your shelf
Don't you think I was too young to understand how
A man could look in the mirror knowing all he threw out

Julia, East Coast, you missed it all
Flying high off the swing sets and catching my fall
Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull
Nearly 30 years now I still wait for your call
(Julia, East Coast, you missed it all)
Still wait for your call
(Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull)
(Julia, East Coast, you missed it all)
You missed it
(Julia, East Coast, your eyes in my skull)
And I keep a paper with all the things that I'd say
If heaven forbid you left for heaven or hell one day
At the top of my list, there's a bunch of little lines that say
How could you do this but actually I'm fine
At the bottom of my list
There's one thing that I wrote
In the back of my mind there's a little white note
It says I love you still, I forgive and I hope