Disappointments

You told me im wrong
But I did everything that you wanted
Anything you asked me or warrant
Maybe the pressure that made it fall out my hands
Reached for success that I cant grab
Sick of the feelings that I cant mask
Mad at the time that I can't get back
But when I look back

I was tryna do better
Had to watch whoever
Keep my right mind center
Did I still stand a chance?
Every time I ran where you pointed
It was hard to enjoy it
And I knew it wouldn't fix with my hands
weight of my world on my shoulders
My heart getting colder
I can't do this over again
Tryna do better
Had to watch front center
But I couldn't do that
I'm a disappointment

Tryna do better
Keep my right mind center
When do I learn when I fucked up? Never
Over confidence made me into a smartass
But I did some dumb shit
Oh you so clever
Now I gotta wake up
Like my ex bitch, I gotta make up
Many thoughts in my brain but it take one
Now I fucked up
This is take two
There's a reason I don't thank you
Every time we fell off I found a breakthrough
And the more we work together and you guide me for better
Your cover gets ripped from the staples
I was tryna show you that I'm independent and there you go saying that it aint you
Elbow pad where my life is too painful
Helmet on when my mental aint safe too
But I cant hate you

I was tryna do better
Had to watch whoever
Keep my right mind center
Did I still stand a chance?
Every time I ran where you pointed
It was hard to enjoy it
And I knew it wouldn't fix with my hands
weight of my world on my shoulders
My heart getting colder
I can't do this over again
Tryna do better
Had to watch front center
But I couldn't do that
I'm a disappointment

That's how im feeling right now
In a dark room like a villian right now
Pain from the past as my ammunition
I'm never missing
Let me kill it right now
Why I feel like this?
How could I even write this?
Stop thinking
The past never passed me I am not blinking
My niggas in the ship, well we are not sinking
Used to be down but I find 'em uplifting
Lil mama could dance like vixen
Fuck her then give an eviction
Then we had to switch positions
She would use all ya bread if you let her
Took my cheese like its provolone, feta
4000° bitch now I'm getting fed up
Hold back my temper
Put in that work it turned out a setup

I was tryna do better
Had to watch whoever
Keep my right mind center
Did I still stand a chance?
Every time I ran where you pointed
It was hard to enjoy it
And I knew it wouldn't fix with my hands
weight of my world on my shoulders
My heart getting colder
I can't do this over again
Tryna do better
Had to watch front center
But I couldn't do that
I'm a disappointment

No you're not
That's just what they told you
New feelings they missing the old you
Getting money, they forgot what they owed you
Wish my uncle didnt pass so soon
There was things I tried to tell him but I missed it
Damn
Gone too fast I can't fix this, damn
Thats life for the moment
Every new one Ima own it
Here I am
Tryna do better
Watched whoever
Right mind center
Ain't stand a chance
Ran where you pointed then I was stuck
Testing my luck while it cost me my hands
World on my shoulders
My heart getting colder
And I cant do this over again
Tryna do better
Watch front and center
But I wouldn't do that
I'm a disappointment
Feel like I disappointed them