the desire to be forgotten

You don't seem to learn from your mistakes, don't you?
You ain't trying to fix every problem that you made, don't you?
History repeats itself, is it all that you say, huh?
Stuck in your thoughts and not looking for an escape, huh?
You never had a safe space, never had more peace
So you decline a session, you despise a soul read
Hide yourself in personalities just to get closer
But you forget the person that you are when it's all over
You need to know
You blame yourself for everything, you overthink on everything
You lied to them on everything, don't like when people understand
Hate when people know you like you know yourself
I know and I notice you scared to ask, but you desire help
Can't reach what you inquire, so your life is now a living hell
Happiness is now a memory, your health in jeopardy, mentally
Living by my word might be the best for you
I try my best to help you so I rap for you
I sing for you, so sin for me
Why, oh, why?
Some days, some days
Try, oh, try
Always, always
(Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah)
(Listen, listen, listen)
If you thinking I ain't right, then the stuff has gotta be potent
You don't like I understand you, you're tryna flee the moment
But every mistake you made is real, you gotta own it
Use it to become a better person, I became a poet
I'm not against it, I think you have a beautiful soul and
You're not exempt from owning it, can't brush it off by joking
You with me or against me? This the time, this the omen
Being yourself is important, the man you are, you stole it
You're a mirror, a mask of what you truly can be
And what you're trying, you can pass it, you can do it with ease
What I just need you to do is just to listen to me
Because my speech is one way you can achieve this peace
I'm not saying it because I'm tryna break you down or spite you
Been in your shoes, I understand you, matter fact I like you
You have to look where you don't want to, inside yourself
And get that there is more to life than to wait for your own death
Why, oh, why?
Some days, some days
Try, oh, try
Always, always
(Uh)
You said you'd never do it again and you lied
You were a fool, blinded by your own pride
Blinded by your ignorance, stupidity, incompetence
An enemy's a consequence, you've never been a friend to me
I tried to help you cleverly, help you with your confidence
But how can I save you if you don't want it?
How can I love you if your perception of love isn't the same from mine?
A twisted game you're playing, I can explain
I hate the things you portray, I hate the mask you put on
I hate the fact that you recognize yourself in all my songs
I hate the fact that you cannot stand yourself, it's not your fault
So I hate the way that your parents made you think that you ain't worth it
Cause you're worth the love and the sweet words that's from the tongue
But can't accept them because you never had em when you was young
Listen, I forgive for a reason that you'll understand
It's never been your fault, after all
I blame your parents' hand
Is it because I loved you, you started to back away?
Let me down, stepped back, just to leave me astray?
Gave me everything and left as if I never came?
Left promises for dead, never made what we could've made
Truth is, I never felt anything like what this is
I was ready to take you on journeys, fulfill your wishes
Have you ever thought it'd be no after, no before?
Have I ever told you I loved you and even more?
How many times have I told you we'd be in this for life?
How many times have I done wrong, just out of spite?
How many times have I sacrificed myself just for love?
How many times have I walked this path? It's getting tight
I'm not saying it because I'm tryna break you down or spite you
Been in your shoes, I understand you, matter fact I like you
You have to look where you don't want to, inside yourself
And get that there is more to life than to wait for your own—
Why, oh, why?
Some days, some days
Try, oh, try
Always, always