Closure

Still forever haunted
By the way I'd respond
To you simply growing up
And, rightly so, moving on

Grand Canyon apart
Not one conversation starts
There's a story to the scar
I was trying hard to retell as art
Still, I can't explain
Why, after lifetimes away
I'll hear someone say your name
And feel that same old pang

I wanted closure
And I was thinking that I'm closer
Oh well and for your information
I am over everything
You claw your way
Back into my brain
If just to say
"Nothing is the same"
I wanted closure
I never got it, but I'm over
Everything

So how were the moments we'd imagined
We'd both see before thirty?
Were they how you thought they'd be?
How were the cries and how were the laughs?
And every surprise caught in between
I could picture it-and I did
Without seeing anything

Wonder what remains
Of the you I knew those days
Way before developed brains
And wedding rings and labor pains
Of me, little's left
Wouldn't recognize me 'cept
For the look of feeling kept
My eyes could never hide

I wanted closure
And I was thinking that I'm closer
Oh well and for your information
I am over everything
You claw your way
Back into my brain
If just to say
"Nothing is the same"
I wanted closure
I never got it, but I'm over
Everything

All the boys and the girls growing up
And living life without ever knowing
Every opening is a closing
Where was I when I was younger?
Ankle sprain on a Razor scooter
Screen name on mom's computer
My past is not my future
Where was I when I was younger?