The Truth I Tell Myself

You don't have to tell me that I'm stubborn
Cause I'm not
And I know 'cause it runs in my family
And skips every other generation
You don't have to save my soul
Or make me feel like I'm in control
It's not worth the double scotch whiskey that you'd have to buy me

You look like you're surprised
Like when will I get wise
But I'll just drive the same dead ends I've tried
And I think I know why

There's no connection between what I want
And what is good for me
The truth I tell myself not to believe

Yeah I know I could have been some thin'
But I'm not and I know that it's somebody else's fault
Just like every other thing that's ever happened to me
Yeah I could have been like the king
Like someone who could really sing
Folks line up round the corner just so they could come n' hear me

Oh there I go again
Them devils love their sin
But they can't end what I do not begin
So I'm safe where I'm in

There's no connection between what I want
And what is good for me
The truth I tell myself not to believe

There's no direction between where I am
And where I'm supposed to be
The truth I tell myself not to believe

Yeah don't think that I'm expecting you to stay
'Cause you won't
And I know 'cause I've seen it a million times
This is charming self destructive disposition of mine
Yeah I know those happy endings are for fools
Who feel like they will never loose
Folks who think there's a God out there that's gonna save them

I'll get this round my friend
And then we can start again
Just like we did when we were who we are
Have we come that far

There's no connection between what I want
And what is good for me
The truth I tell myself not to believe

There's no direction between where I am
And where I'm supposed to be
The truth I tell myself not to believe