how to deal

I've been thinking lately I'm getting worse
At talking to people It's a curse
That I put on myself I guess It's a kind of spell
But it means I'm a witch and I'll be seeing you in hell

There's a kid I know, that I've never met
He's learning drums on the internet
And he beats himself up if he messes up the song
But you'll never play great if you never play it wrong

I can't tell you how to do it
I am barely getting through it

There's a man I know who's biggest dream
Was to meet John Prine who he'd never seen
But now he'll never get the chance I guess
Our heroes die but we can still find happiness

Sometimes things just won't go by
They get stuck in your mind like a battle cry
And I'm still figuring out just how to deal
But life goes on no matter how you feel

I can't tell you how to do it
I am barely getting through it
I don't know if I'm ok
I ask that question every day