Different Now

If this is all part of a plan
Why do I feel so lost?
I tried, I never outran
It seems I've been running for so long

Like will you still love me again?
It's hard, I'm alone and I'm sober
I didn't do it for nothing
If you're gone, then I'm gone and it's over

Tell me, tell me I've changed and that kid is gone
Tell me you'll stay 'cause I'm different now
I think that I'm sick, I open my mouth
And hate every word that comes out

They tell me to wait til it comes 'round
They tell me it's okay and calm down
I'm nothing but guilt, I've burned what I built
The fuel I spilled was my own will

I'm killing my innocence, oh well
Tried trading my soul, it's a hard sell
You say if I'm broken, just own it
So I light up the pit I was thrown in

Let me engulf in the flames now
Burn off my scars, take my brain out
Don't ever think I'm in pain now
I found me some peace, got no shame now

What difference is there if I'm gone
Done nothing but write off my wrongs
I try to tell you in my songs
I'm an asshole, in hell, I belong

Bury me, leave me a blunt in my casket
'Cause even in death, I'm an addict
Lived my life trying to mask it
Living with questions, don't ask it

Tell me I've changed and that kid is gone
Tell me you'll stay 'cause I'm different now
I think that I'm sick, I open my mouth
And hate every word that comes out

They tell me to wait til it comes 'round
They tell me it's okay and calm down
I'm nothing but guilt, I've burned what I built
The fuel I spilled was my own will

Tell me I've changed and that kid is gone
Tell me you'll stay 'cause I'm different now
I think that I'm sick, I open my mouth
And hate every word that comes out

They tell me to wait til it comes 'round
They tell me it's okay and calm down
I'm nothing but guilt, I've burned what I built
The fuel I spilled was my own will



Credits
Writer(s): Archer Hicks Andrade-johnson
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