Have I Been Living?

Four by five
If my friends don't mind
Because I don't wanna talk about my old self. And I
I promise
I promise

I don't wanna talk about my old self
I breathe lemons and I credit it to seaside
I was never really thinking about my own self

And I... I-

All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered. All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered
Dare me to say, "Okay, my bad." Dare to pretend it never happened
All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered

I think I forgot it
How is your job?
I wanna finish what we started. Courtesy call me
I'm a garden and I'm rotting. And when I'm gone
I'm gonna finish what I started

I promise
I promise
I don't wanna talk about my old self
I don't wanna talk about my old self

All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered. All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered
Dare me to say, "Okay, my bad."
Dare to pretend it never happened. All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered

Have I been living in the past?

All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered. All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered
Dare me to say, "Okay, my bad."
Dare to pretend it never happened. All of the things I never had
All of the things that never mattered