First Love's Name

I miss you more than I could say
Though I was never very good at that
But I can say that I'm tired of waiting for you
You said you need to find yourself
So you can love me better
But I'm afraid that I wasn't made for you

I love you, but I know you can't feel it
I'll touch you, but it won't get through
So I need to love you better
I need to find a way to give you my phantom touch

Said "It's not you, it's me"
Like a bad cliché
You need time to figure yourself out, okay
I lie down in my lonesome
Wondering "How did it get to be this way?"
I lie down in my heart to myself
I'm okay
Sometimes we fall out of love
And that's alright
But you still wouldn't give up on me
Even after every night
Spent feeling like you don't have a partner
As the years go being a partner gets harder
The touches on your hands and your back
That once excited you
Don't make it to you

I love you, but I know you can't feel it
I'll touch you, but it won't get through
And so I need to love you better
I need to find a way to give you my phantom touch
The days pass and I haven't talked to you
I wonder how you're doing these days
Will we be on break for forever
I can't do this, I'm missing you far too much

I'm sorry I bored you
I'm sorry I was nothing all of the time
I guess it's only fair that if I should take his place
He should take mine
Though it may hurt, I still want you here
Don't want any strife
Please hear my words
I still need you here in my life

I love you, but I know you can't feel it
I'll touch you, but it won't get through
And so I need to love you better
I need to find a way to give you my phantom touch
I love you, and I know you love me too
It's still love, but love isn't the same
It hurts now, but I hope in our futures
I'll smile when I hear my first love's name