A Good Year

You're always leaving me to feel it
Saying words I don't believe in
Making plans that turn to grieving
Haven't seen my friends in weeks

I am sick of feeling so much
Haven't slept right through in months
I miss falling and waking up
I keep dreaming that it will stop

I just want a good year
A few months out in the clear
Sick of falling out the other side again
I just want a good year
A few days without you here
Sick of waking just to fall asleep again

And I'm tired, aren't you tired?
You took me for the biggest ride
Told you I was scared of heights
But then you took me to the sky
And I'm trying, why aren't you trying?
I can't afford to let you in
There are moments, maybe glimmers
Lights of hope that I'm chasing

And if I close my eyes and listen
I hear you plotting something
I keep trying to drown you out
But you keep feeding me full of doubt

I just want a good year
A few months out in the clear
Sick of falling out the other side again
I just want a good year
A few days without you here
Sick of waking just to fall asleep again

I just want a good year
Something to believe in
I just need a good year
One where I can breathe in

'Cause I spent, I spent, a year pretending
I was, I was, I was human
It's gonna hurt 'til you feel it
Even on the slowest days, when you feel infinite

I just want a good year
A few months out in the clear
Sick of falling out the other side again
I just want a good year
A few days without you here
Sick of waking just to fall asleep again