Thinking of you

Addiction is your problem
Whether you admit it or not
When you were high
Is mostly when we fought
I believe if you were drug free
We would've ended up differently
Maybe you would've stayed with her
And left me alone
Or maybe we'd stayed together
And made us a home

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still there
Gnawing away at my heart
I don't blame you
Though I did from the start

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still here
Still here

There are so many possibilities
That could have been
We could be married by now
Maybe with children
Don't get me wrong
I was also at fault
A long time ago
I should've put our relationship to a halt

I didn't stop it
But you didn't either
Now we've broken up
I feel a lot freer
Like a burden was lifted off of my tired old shoulders
Two heavy weights
Felt like two heavy boulders

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still there
Gnawing away at my heart
I don't blame you
Though I did from the start

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still here
Still here

It wasn't you that was so bad
It was the pills that made us so sad
Always wanting money to buy more
Always at the ATM
Or overwriting a check at the grocery store

I hate what we did
But I still love you
I love who you used to be
My sweet gentle lover
My friend I could always talk to
You were never very far
I miss the intimacy we shared
I miss the times we would laugh and giggle
And give each other cards that told how much we cared

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still there
Gnawing away at my heart
I don't blame you
Though I did from the start

I can't stop thinking of you
After all that we had gone through
The pain is still here
Still here

If it wasn't you it could've been different
But I guess it turned out for the best
And when I hear your life is good
Then my heart and mind could rest
I hope your life is rich
And all your dreams come true
And I hope you know deep within your heart
That I will always
Always love you
You

And watch
It could've been different
But I guess it turned out for the best
And when I hear your life is good
Then my heart and mind could rest
I hope your life is rich
And all your dreams come true
And I hope you know deep within your heart
That I will always
Always love you