Laying In My Room (But the Walls Are Not My Friends)

I've been laying in my room, staring at the ceiling
Tracing the cracks like they could fix this feeling
These four walls used to hold me tight
Now they echo all the quiet nights

Your ghost is in every corner, I swear
The space you left is more than I can bear
I thought the silence would help me mend
But these walls, they're not my friends

It's been too long since I've felt alive
Drowning in memories I can't survive
I know I need to let you go
But it's harder than I'll ever show

I'm laying in my room, but the walls are closing in
Can't shake the feeling of where you've been
I want to move on, but I don't know how
Feels like a prison of the here and now
I thought these walls would be my friends
But all they do is remind me again
That I'm alone, and you're not coming back
But I want to find my way back off this track

The bed feels colder, empty sheets on my side
No one here to hold me when I cry
I've been scrolling through pictures, the late-night scroll
Trying to fill the space you left in my soul

Maybe it's time I get back out there
But the fear of more heartache keeps me scared
I built these walls to keep me safe
But now I'm trapped in this lonely place

It's been too long since I've felt alive
Drowning in memories I can't survive
I know I need to let you go
But it's harder than I'll ever show

I'm laying in my room, but the walls are closing in
Can't shake the feeling of where you've been
I want to move on, but I don't know how
Feels like a prison of the here and now
I thought these walls would be my friends
But all they do is remind me again
That I'm alone, and you're not coming back
But I want to find my way back off this track

Maybe I'll tear these walls down brick by brick
Get out before the loneliness sticks
It's time for me to find my way outside
But I'm still haunted by the love we tried
I know it's never coming back again
But that doesn't stop me when my soul wants to pretend that

Maybe I'll tear these walls down brick by brick
Get out before the loneliness sticks
It's time for me to find my way outside
But I'm still haunted by the love we tried

I'm laying in my room, but the walls are closing in
Can't shake the feeling of where you've been
I want to move on, but I don't know how
Feels like I'm in a prison of the here and now
I thought these walls would be my friends
But all they do is remind me again
That I'm alone, and you're not coming back
But I want to find my way back off of this track

Now I'm laying in my room
But these walls are not my friends

Laying in this room without my friends