Sink or Swim (BandLab Version)

(In the end)

Like a vase that fell it's broken pieces of me
Lost at sea tellin' me sink or swim
The light I had in me I watched it go dim
Feel unforgivable for all my sins My second coming like the resurrection
Put chalk on the board I had to learn the lessons
I've been makin' art come out of my confessions

Be havin' guilt in me I ain't goin' lie
Cause after all this time I still want to (die)
Always gettin' numb got red in my eyes
Just copped seven I already smoked three five
This ain't livin' all I do is survive Gotta take risks I know that it's do or die
I be choosin' them but who choosin' I
Askin' why I'm out of breath doin' suicide

They tell me it's the end but I ignore the signs
Backing up like a PC on override Ain't no more left in me I got pulverized
I be with the family they say what's goin' on
Got my own place but never at my home
It's too much that I'm capable of on my own
I hate to talk but I hate to be alone

I ain't got the answer I'm tryin' to know myself
I can't recognize me I don't know myself
I used to feel at the top like a elf on the shelf
Came a long way I used to scream and yell
When it comes to life now I just laugh at it
On the highway I hate when the traffic hit
Got ZIPS in the bag like I'm drug traffickin'
When It's just me and my mind I get trapped in it
It's everyday that I feel trapped Overthinkin' feelin' they don't really love me for real
Easy to say it but it's hard to show it
Only when I come through it starts showing
Expecting the worst I'm already knowing

Pieces of me broken up like a puzzle
Barely make a sound it's like I got a muzzle
I hate where I'm at wan' restart and do over
High on mars I'm feelin' like the Rover
Smoked four leafs I still ain't get a clover
Hate the cold shoulder I be needing closure
I made a hole I was diggin' like a gopher
You know me I'll still be here when it's over